Firstly , This few days my heart & my life is just full of dark .. I can't even see a light or rainbow in it .. Can't even breath even I rest how much ... I still feel the tired in my heart ... I really don't know I can tell to who all my feelings .. I don't know which is the best method for me in life ... Giving Up someone is not easy at all ... Can you tell me what you want ? .. Who am I to you ? ... I can't even understand myself well ... So , How could I understand you ? ..
Secondly , I don't know should I choose my life and put you in it .. or I shouldn't ... I really don't know when you are real or you are just lying to me .. cause I know I am stupid like no one else ... Can you tell me ? ..Sometimes you makes me happy like asdfghjkl ... But sometimes you makes me sad like asdfghjkl ... All I know is you makes me go Crazy ... Or should I be like this girl ... Crying in the rain ... and think what should I do now ?
All I need is silence ... and just listening to the beach ... and rest alone ... All alone .. Lonely ? .. I don't feel that .. I think it will be more happy & relaxing for me :) ... and please if you got anything to tell me just tell me .. cause I just hate to guess what are you thinking ? .. and so on .... cause I just hate disappointing like asdfghjkl ... and I just hate tears falling from my eyes :) ...
This few days makes me feel like playing back my violin... cause I always feel that playing violin is so romantic ... and I do like to play guitar .. but I feel that is romantic .. but not as much as violin .. People say play piano can take away your stress .. Maybe ? ... but I don't really like piano .. cause I feel that violin is my unique and romantic :) ... Missing you is all that I can do :(
I am so scared to tell you my feelings .. cause I am scared of the hurt , pain and sad I need to go through ... This is me ! ... cause I tell myself before all I want is happiness not Pain ... So sorry to say that .. I can't tell you what I feel about you .. before you tell me ! ... I can do all the impossible things for you .. I can give all the caring to you .. but all I want to do now is STOP ! .. cause I just want to know the truth of my feelings & yours !
Do you want my heart ? ... Do you want my love ? .. Do you want my care ? ... Do you want my time ? and so on ? ... All you need is just say yes and please meant it ... and all this is yours :) ... I love you ! ... But maybe what I feel now .. is not your feelings ... Peeps Help !!!.. You are imperfect but I like it so much .. do you know why ? .. cause it makes me feel that you need ME ! ... and it makes you so perfect like asdfghjkl =P
And I hope we can used a camera & our heart to remember our memories :) ... and what we gave to each others :) ... Yes or No ? ... Take care :) ... Bye :) .... =P.. Lastly , I may not be everything you want , but I will always be more than you deserve !
So that the one you keep mention on this post . Isit the girl that I knew? Isit the girl that I told you before you still haven't give up . Anyway , just try your very best to do yourself.
ReplyDeleteIf really cannot give up , then don't wanna force yourself to give up anymore. It's no meaning in your life. You're the one who got the right to choose your life style , not the one who choose for you.
Erm , I really don't know ! .. Actually I don't know I give up her already anot or I am lying myself or I just want someone like her to give me the feelings but actually I don't love her already ! .. Haiz ... I really can't know what I want .... Help !!! ... I am really very scared to tell her what I feel cause I don't want to make myself upset ... Okay :) ... thanks :) ... Maybe I can't even choose ... cause I don't know what I want ???? ... still got others thing very fan arrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
ReplyDeleteAnyway,if you have no people to talk . You may tell me your everything.I'll hear you. I can help you as much as I can.
Deleteen en LOL :) ... thanks yeah tan chia yee .. for being my listener =P
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